Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Tired


Last night the manic phase of my bi-polar started. I paced, I rolled over and over in bed, my mind runs and the voices start yelling about everything I need to do. Each voice tries to talk over the other and each to make sure I hear the things that they want me to do. Needless to say it was a restless night.
My sister and I do not have a great relationship. She is selfish, believes that she should be taken care of and feels everyone "owes" her for all the bad choices she was talked into making. She is supposed to be here to help with the last of my mom's move and pick up the things that she wants from the old house. She has now put it back 3 times this week. I just can't deal with her, the packing and unpacking, dirt, heavy loads, Mom in denial that about the "things" she does not need anymore. I'm tired. I pray and I pray harder and I am tired. Yesterday I cried, then cried harder. All I got was a headache. If it were not for a few very good friends I would not have been able to do this. There is one very very special husband and wife that have held me up when I was falling. Dear Andria, you are my sister in heart and soul. I will walk to the ends of the earth for you and Doug. Thank you for being.

Blessings to each of you and blessings to the special people in your life. Donna

5 comments:

  1. Donna,

    Thank you so much! You know Doug and I would do anything for you guys. I know the hardest parts are things we can't change like dealing with your sister, but know we are praying and here to listen.
    We love you, too!
    Andrea and Doug

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  2. I am lifting you up Donna and may the Lord quiet your mind, comfort your soul, and may you know HE holds each tear and may you feel HIS PRESENCE today.

    Bless you,

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  3. I pray for you that God will give you comfort and peace. I pray you have a better day today. Many Blessings,

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  4. Donna,

    I truly understand all the difficulties that feel like they are falling around you like a huge avalanche and you in standing right in the front with no protection.

    Try dealing with things one at a time and find something to write about that went well today. I need three of them, no matter how small.

    I continue to pray for you sweet sister and this time too shall pass. You have quite a few people lifting prayers in your behalf to God for you.

    Can't wait for you to stop by and become a follower of mine. Perhaps you can stop over for some cup of hot chocolate or coffee? Once you do that you become part of my family.

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat

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