This has been the second worst week of my life. The first being the 5 weeks that my Dad was sick then passing over. In lost desparation I received the massive outpouring of love and prayers I knew that I would not be alone. I hurt so much watching my dear wonderful daughter struggle with the acceptance that she had been raped. Her anger, her low self-esteem, the struggle her boyfriend is going to. It is so painful for me. She is seeking help for which I thank God. With her struggle it has not become just about her, but about all women and this ugly injustace.
My cat was put to sleep on Thursday. The vet let me lay down with her and hold her. I heard her last breath. She purred until the end. Today I took out the litter box, washed her bowl and collected her toys for my daughter's cat. I miss her so much. I expect her to walk around a corner and slap the dog, or open the bathroom door. My dog has been going to the pantry where her food was and then to where we fed her. He went to litter box, paces from room to room and cries. He misses her too.
So much more, and I am tired. I am fighting my depression as hard as I can right now. I know I am in that downward spiral I get with the bi-polar but I am fighting. I am allowing myself the time to mourn. I am taking my meds. I have been going back to each of your posts for my bible verses. They are helping.
On a good note, I have many more blogs to become friends with. My love and blessings to each of my new and loving friends.
You know there is hope in the midst of every storm, we simply need to look for it and ask God to shine His light on it so we might see it clearly. In everything, there is some blessing, we just need to see it because it's so easy to focus on the bigger things going on around us. Find the blessings that are there in the every day!
ReplyDeleteLove and Hugs ~ Kat
Praying for God to comfort you, your daughter and her boyfriend.
ReplyDeleteIsaiah 61:3 -"To all who mourn in Israel, he will give beauty for ashes, joy instead of mourning, praise instead of despair. For the Lord has planted them like strong and graceful oaks for his own glory"
God bless you sister.
I know these days have been difficult, but you must cling tightly to your Heavenly Father and DO NOT loosen the grip no matter what happens. You know how much you love Karen and your kitty...how much more does GOD love you? Think, ponder, and KNOW to the core of your being that HE loves you beyond what you can comprehend. He has also sent the troops to rally in prayer on your behalf. Climb into HIS arms and rest...then arise and conquer the things HE has for you.
ReplyDeleteBlessings, love, hugs, and prayers, andrea
LORD, we know You are giving this precious daughter Your love and comfort. We ask You, Abba Father, to hold her closely and tenderly. We pray for healing; we pray for peace; we pray for calm. This afternoon our bay here was ever-so-calm and silky. That is not the way Your ocean looks or acts when the sea glass is being smoothed after being broken. Yet, once it has become smooth with gentle edges, Your ocean can be calm like our bay today. Give Donna that calm with both the surface waters and the waters below to be as silk. We place Donna, her daughter and her boyfriend into Your care. We ask all of this in the Powerful Name of Jesus. Amen.
ReplyDeleteMatthew 26:53
ReplyDeleteOr do you think that I cannot now pray to My Father, and He will provide Me with more than twelve legions of angels?
I gave this Scripture to a friend who was in a dangerous place and needed prayer and protection. In the days of Jesus, a legion was 15,000 men in an army (Roman). So if the 12 legions had been called, that makes a mighty army of angels.
We pray for those legions of angels to surround you and your daughter, sweet Donna. May they protect you and uplift you; may they hold your hands, and your head up high; may they keep your heart at their bosom.
Caring through Christ, ~ linda
Psalm 34:18
ReplyDeleteThe LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 147:3
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
We are all here for you and lifting you to the FAther....may HE cover you with HIS wings and may you feel the LOVE of the Father wash over and over you!
I understand what you are going through and am sending love and warm energy to you. Hold tight to your faith, take your meds, grieve for your beloved kitty. Blessings your way.
ReplyDeletePlease know that there are people out here who love you and care for you! My Wife Kat at Heart 2 Heart has been following your blog and told me a little about you. I will pray for you to overcome this hard time right now. My wife and I wish for you to look to God and find that tomorrow just like today will begin anew and it is how you look at things that will start your path to feeling better!
ReplyDeleteTake Care and Keep the Faith!
Steve
I am truly sorry for your pain dear one. I will life you and your family up in prayer. Hugs ♥
ReplyDeleteI just want to remind you...take it minute by minute/hour by hour/and day by day...Draw your strength from Jesus.
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Tessa
Hi friend,
ReplyDeleteI am Laurie and I am glad to find your blog.
I am thankful that you have the courage to reach out to others through your blog. I will definitely keep you in my prayers and your daughter as well. Sometimes things are so much greater than ourselves and the below verses give me great comfort. I pray that God will carry you through this time and show Himself strong on your behalf. Much love and prayers, Laurie
Romans 8:37 No, in all these things I am more than a conqueror through him who loved me. 38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[m] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate me from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Psalm 61:2
From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
Blogger will not let me post on your new post, Discovery. Don't know why. I am glad you are back. I love you and I continue to pray for you.
ReplyDeleteHang on to your Heavenly Father.
andrea