Friday, September 25, 2009

Running


Can't think lately. Have lost track of a friend and I am afraid. I am so co-dependant on this person to make me feel worthy. I haven't been this long chatting with "friend". "Friend" told me that the only way that I would ever hear or get a message was if something bad happened. I hate my co-dependancy. This is setting off my PTSD. My stomach is churning, my hands are shaking, my mind is running. I keep praying but feel isolated. I want to go somewhere safe from the hurt and pain.

25 comments:

  1. Just a sister in Christ here praying for you ....

    Recently I was going through a terrible difficult time and found great comfort in the book of psalms. My favorite is Psalm 34:4 "I sought the Lord and He answered me, he delivered me from all my fears"

    God Bless
    Tina

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  2. I am with you in spirit. Hang on to your Heavenly Father and HE will see you through. I claim his promise of Isaiah 43:1-3....
    I love you and I am storming the heavens on your behalf.
    Andrea

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  3. Psalms are always wonderful during difficult times. God loves us with an everlasting love. He is always with us and will never leave nor forsake us. I came from your friend Andrea's. Praying for you, Dear ~ He is the lifter of our heads.

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  4. God won't give you more than you can handle, and therein lies a wonderful Father. Andrea sent me to pray with you and for you.
    May God be with you and give you his peace.
    BM

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  5. Please know you have so many people praying for you. Myself included. I pray for God to Comfort you and give you Peace. Many Blessings,

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  6. Another sister from Andrea's blog...praying for you to receive exactly what you need from the Lord...

    "Behold, the LORD's hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; neither his ear heavy, that it cannot hear. Isa 59:1"

    Run to the shelter of His wings...there you will find love, strength, and comfort....

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  7. I don't know exactly what you are going thru, but for years I relied on certain people to make me feel worthy until I realized I was worthy enough in God's eyes...you have to believe that your life has meaning because he created you...lean hard on family and friends, and pray even harder, and know God is right there with you...even thru all these comments from people you may not truly know, but you do 'know' through the precious blood of Christ.
    God bless you!

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  8. Another friend of Andrea's here. You are in God's heart. You were His idea - a gem of an idea He put into action at your conception and continues to mold. It helps me, when I'm wanting to crawl out of my skin - to have the conversation I want to have with the missing loved one on paper - just be both people. God holds you in His hand and He won't let go.

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  9. I heard of your loneliness. I have felt isolated and alone many times. Whether the clouds are thickest or the sun shine bright, the LORD in heaven promises He'll be there Ps. 139.

    I'm praying for you. I ask the LORD to show you His manifest presence in such ways you will feel His warmth and comfort. AMEN.

    Hugs and Blessings,
    Karlene Jacobsen

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  10. Bi-polar is a difficult condition to deal with. I know. We have members of our family who are bi-polar. I really believe the only answer is to have a relationship with Jesus. Even then, it isn't easy.
    I see others have come here from Andrea's blog. I too came at her request. I want you to know I am praying for you and for Steve.
    Blessings,
    Charlotte

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  11. Oh sweet child of God,
    Your heavenly Father holds you closely this very minute. He is the One that can comfort and love you like no one else. I pray to Him for your safety. I ask Him to bind all that is a torment to you in the Name of Jesus. I ask Him to heal your need for others when He is the Only One you need. Run to Him and not away. He calls you. He is always with you. Know that those of us who are praying for you love you because we are sisters in the LORD. ~ linda

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  12. I, too, am praying. You are very precious, and God cares about you. Do you have a counselor or doctor that you can talk to during this time? Sometimes we just need a little help getting through a rough spot. Hang in there. You are lifted up by many.

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  13. I speak peace over your life in Jesus name. Take care of yourself. You can make it. With God, all things are possible.

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  14. Dear sweet one... I came from Andrea's blog. I, too, depended on one person and needed that person around in order for me to feel worthy. It took a while, and with the support of God, family and friends (and my blog) I was able to find worthiness in myself through God.

    You can do that, too. I so echo all of the above comments, but especially "Being Woven's."

    You are a treasure of God's - just like you are right now - hurts, struggles, diagnoses, etc. YOU are not your diagnosis. I, too, have a few diagnoses like those (PTSD, Depression, anxiety, etc.)

    Please do something special for you. Make yourself a nice cup of tea in a favorite mug. Put on your favorite pj's - grab a soft blanket. Watch a funny movie... write in a journal, draw pictures, take photographs. Something as a creative outlet sometimes works for me...maybe it will work for you.

    Do you have someone to call to come over and be with you? Can you go visit someone close by? Can you call a pastor or a counselor or a crisis clinic? You can also call prayer lines like at Joyce Meyer and maybe even Joel Osteen. The Hour of Power might still have one...I'm not sure.

    I pray to God that He will lift you up, surround you with His loving and comforting arms and show you how much worth you have within yourself.

    Write positive notes on your mirror to remind you that you ARE Worthy and Loved.

    If you want to write me... feel free animperfectperfection(at)gmail(dot)com.

    I'm also praying for Steve and his family.

    I'm praying for peaceful and restorative blessings for you.

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  15. Hi, came from Andrea's blog. She's very worried and sent us all to pray with you. God is really out there, but no matter how much comfort we might be for you for now. It's not going to be enough to reach the depths of your own heart and to know yourself that you are being healed. We can sit with you and pray with you, but you'll have to reach out to him.

    Leave your faith with him, because people come and go and you will be lost again.

    God be with you always.

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  16. You are in my thoughts and prayers! Be strong and reach down inside you, find the strength you know you have. Hugs and prayers are all around you embrace them and please find comfort and strength. This too shall pass. Much love

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  17. Beloved,

    This morning, I woke up and was not feeling well. Today on my blog is a devotional about how God helps us when Trails comes during times of trouble. As I was typing this post I thought to myself, Lord, truthfully, I'm tried and don't feel all that well and I wish you wouldn't put me through these tests.

    So often when we are in pain or are sick and just don't feel like we can get off the floor
    and put on a happy face. We do know that God is with us. He's our closest and dearest friend in the world. Friends may go and new friends come and take their place. But God is BFF.

    After posting my blog I saw this prayer request from Andrea and who knows maybe this devotional was meant for you. Remember that others are praying for you.

    I will keep you in my prayers. May our most wonderful, and loving Savior wrap you up and keep you warm and safe in His arms today.

    So cuddle up close to his HEART.

    Charlotte

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  18. I too am praying for you. I used to think I had to fix, heal or help people and it drove me nuts. That is a big responsiblity. Only God can do that. Praying you can let go of and trust God with 'friend.'

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  19. I pray the heaviness will pass and that you will understand that people you don't even know are praying for you and surrounding you with love. You are valuable. You are worthy. You are beloved by the King and He is surrounding you with his angels and loving arms. Fear not, for I am with you!

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  20. Psalm 27:13-14 (King James Version)

    13I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

    14Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.


    Praying that you will find strength, comfort, peace and grace in the LORD as you stand on HIM and HIS word for all of your needs. May HIS love saturate you as you surrender more and more to HIM.

    Blessings and peace.

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  21. Sweet one,
    I pray you find comfort in the prayers, love, and support of the blog world and outside the blog world. We all love you. GOD knows your heart and your deepest needs. HE is there waiting for you to crawl into HIS arms.
    So many times in my life I have felt deeply alone. It was during those times I curled up and actually slept with my favorite Bible. I clung so tightly to our Heavenly Father and all I can tell you is that is why I am here, today. It may seem silly or stupid...but it helped. I was at the end of the rope and the thread was all but broken. He never let go of me.
    I love you and I am storming the heavens on your behalf.
    Andrea

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  22. Hi, came this way via Andrea's blog.

    I'm pray that the Lord will comfort you, and strengthen you with His strength through weaknesses, and show you just how much He treasures you, that your worth is without measure in His eyes.

    "the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20

    Jesus treasures us so greatly that "He died for us so that, whether we are awake (on earth) or asleep (in heaven), we may live together with him." 1 Thessalonians 5:10

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  23. God will never leave you. Hang in there. I'll pray for you too.

    I came over from Arise 2 Write.

    Nannette from Life: Be-in-it

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  24. I wish there were something I could do to help you. Big hugs.

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