Can't think lately. Have lost track of a friend and I am afraid. I am so co-dependant on this person to make me feel worthy. I haven't been this long chatting with "friend". "Friend" told me that the only way that I would ever hear or get a message was if something bad happened. I hate my co-dependancy. This is setting off my PTSD. My stomach is churning, my hands are shaking, my mind is running. I keep praying but feel isolated. I want to go somewhere safe from the hurt and pain.