For Kat

Kat shared with us...now I will share with you:

1. Tell me the absolute best way to watch a movie: wait until it comes out on On Demand. Put on my PJs, a big bag of popcorn. Except for Mama Mia, my friend went to the theater an d we were the only ones in the theater so we sang and danced to the movie.
.2. Do you ever think about your own funeral? If so, do you have specific ideas about how you would like it to be? yup, have already told people what I want. No red roses. And, after, go back to the house, have a stiff drink and remember my jokes. When I told my husband this he told me we couldn't drink and tell my kind of jokes at church. Clueless.
3. Are you more of a giver or a taker? giver
4. Vacations: planned activities and schedules, or play it by ear? planned where I am going, play it by ear when I get there. Ask Andrea for elaboration.
5. What is one often overlooked item in your home that needs to be cleaned regularly?everything
6. Name a cause that means a lot to you.7. Autistic Awareness, Parkinsons Research, Breast Cancer Research
Do you eat a regular old peanut butter jelly sandwich, or do you customize it?Peanut Butter and Jelly alone. Why mess up a good thing And by the way, jelly or no jelly? blackberry
8. If we were having a conversation in person, how would I know if you were nervous? I scratch my nose.
9. Do you have an elaborate bedtime routine, or just the basics of tooth brushing and jammies?face cream(s)
10. Have you ever regretted something you wrote on your blog? don't think so
11. Has anyone ever told you that you look like a famous person or celebrity?nope Did you agree?
12. If you were going to dedicate a song to a loved one or friend, what would the song be and to whom would it be dedicated? my daughter MY GIRL. started singing it to her the day she was born

Ok, who's next

The Existence of God

I went away for a few days. Not alone-I was with my husband and we went up to the lake in Central NY State. For the first time his father and step-mother will not be driving to Florida for the winter, they will fly; so we went there to say our winter goodbyes. You see, my father-in-law is 90 years old. And healthy, but he is 90. But, we were also there for another reason. You see, my husband was raised Jewish, and he still celebrates the holidays with his family. I go and I celebrate but in a different way. As I sit in the temple, I hear the words of the Hebrew people. The language of our Lord Jesus Christ. I hear the prayers that are recited and sung and I think that these are the words and prayers that our Lord recited and prayed. The prayers begin with thankfulness, to penitence, to mourning, to celebration, to forgivness. And as each section begins my father-in-law would explain something to me and say: "Read the English, and you will understand". So I read, commentaries, translations, and the ah-ha moment that I would like to share:
Isaiah 43:12 says You are my witnesses, says the Lord, and I am God.
The commentary is as follows: God exists; but unless we acknowledge this, and unless our belief in God's existence has some influence on our life and character, then for us God does not exist...God exists when we recognize God's sovereignty! The sages of the Midrash had their own way of teaching this idea that, in a sense, God depends on us just as we depend on God. When you are MY witness, I am God; but when you are not my witness, I am, as it were, not God.
How sad it must make God when we do not do his will. When we do not testify to his existence and accepting Him and His Son into our lives we are denying him and admitting that HE is not the the ruler of our lives, it is as if we are denying his existence.
I pray for each of you to open your hearts on the days you question and are hard; I pray for each of you to look into the heavens and say yes God, yes Jesus, I will live my life as you have asked.

Thank You

I feel all the prayers but don't stop please. I am praying for each of too. I am thanking God for not leaving me alone and I have some dear friends to help hold me up with God. I will get through this. Co-dependancy is a nasty thing. It takes over a life and you lose all your worth unless that one person validates everything when you want it validated.
I am headed to the lake for a few days. I will be back Tuesday night. Have a wonderful weekend . I love you all.

Running

Can't think lately. Have lost track of a friend and I am afraid. I am so co-dependant on this person to make me feel worthy. I haven't been this long chatting with "friend". "Friend" told me that the only way that I would ever hear or get a message was if something bad happened. I hate my co-dependancy. This is setting off my PTSD. My stomach is churning, my hands are shaking, my mind is running. I keep praying but feel isolated. I want to go somewhere safe from the hurt and pain.

STORM THE HEAVENS WITH PRAYER

Dear Friends,
Walking this evening, I ran into a friend one block over. I had not seen her for awhile because of me being out of town. As we were talking she started to tear up, asking what was wrong, she told me how her husband had had a brain bleed in June and is still in the hospital. She thinks that he is aware of the family being there but he really makes no major responses. I told her that we would start storming the heavens in their behalf. So, please pray for Steve that God will hold his hand and heal him if his will be done. Please hold Becky in your prayers as she deals with terrible blow. The couple is in their early 40's and two children in elementary school.
If someone could tell me how to make a button for Steve and let's see how fast we can get this out. If anyone would like to e-mail Becky, message me at my e-mail and I have permission to give it out.
Storm the heavens for healing my friends

Jesus Saves

Some of you have seen this-others have not. Please take 5 minutes and watch. It is my devotions today. Blessings


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA

In Memory of .....

WARNING:For some of you this post might be a little to graphic, and painful to read.

"For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their tresspasses, neither will you Father forgive your trespasses" Matthew 6:14-15

I was at my real estate office on a Tuesday; and, like every other Tuesday, my co-workers were also arriving for our weekly meeting. We laugh over the coffee pot, who gets the chocolate filled donut, who took the blueberry muffin, teasing each other about getting (or not getting a listing).
We take our seats, a phone rings, a friend cries as she listens on the phone and yells turn on the radio. "A plane has just hit the twin towers". We quietly start questioning what happened when we hear, the pentagon has just had a plane flown into it. Shock. A plane has gone down in Pennsylvania. A second plane has been flown into the towers. Each of us knows at that point that this was not an accident. Fear. Numbness. Anxiety. We try to carry on but in the end we give up and go home. After: we hold a friends hand because her daughter was supposed to be on the train that pulls into the underground of the towers when the planes hit. A friend's husband works on the 3rd floor of one of the towers. My nephew (15 at the time) was in school just three blocks away. None of us knew where they were. No communication. We had to wait. And wait. And wait.
I went home and watched the TV for hours. Waiting for the call that our dear Kevin was safe. It did not come until 9 that night. He had walked with his friends across Manhattan to a friends house until it could be planned how to get him and a few friends out to their home in Staten Island. Numbness set in. So many lives changed in just a few minutes.
The next Saturday was Rosh Hashana. My husband was raised Jewish and still celebrates the holidays. We were on the highway passing the dump when we realized at the same time that all the white tents, all the people in clean suits, and the massive amount of ambulances, and hearses, and rescue trucks were all there for the same reason. They were sorting remains. The reality of what happened the Tuesday before started to become a reality. But, the real reality was when we drove over the last hill to our family's house - the towers were gone, the smoke was rising, there was a hole where one of my favorite sites was. And yes, there were smells. One's I never want to experience again. And I began to cry, and the crying and shaking wouldn't stop. My husband ended up getting his sister and she took me and my daughter around the corner to where there was a total view of the devastation. She said look and see. Look until you can hold it in your heart and remember that this is what hate is and we now have to learn how to deal with this awful thing that has happened to all of us. And I cried and lashed out at God telling him that whoever did this should never be forgiven and be damned for all eternity.
I know that to be forgiven by our Lord, one must believe in our Lord and Savior. I am not the judge of others. God is the judge. Because I can't forgive, does Christ not forgive us? Or do we ask him for mercy and forgiveness for our actions and thoughts and know that he is always with us? I choose the later.

True to Ourselves

Do not withhold Your tender mercies from me, O Lord; Let Your lovingkindness and Your truth continually preserve. me. For innumerable evils have surrounded me; My iniquities have overtaken me, so that I am not able to look up;They are more than the hairs of my head; Therefore my heart fails me. Psalm 40:11-12. (Women of Faith Devotional Bible)

For the past few days I have started aching in my heart again for things I have done that I am not proud of. My head tells me that because I have pulled away from God and not done all of his will; and, my punishment is the bad things that are happening. Now, understand that this is my head talking, not my heart. My heart tells me that God has never left me, that he does not "punish. I have always dealt with my guilt by saying that God is punishing me. Reality, and age, have made me understand that this is not God doing this, but me living with the consequences of actions and decisions that I have made.

Thinking back I am sure that each of you has felt the same way at some point in your life too. We are each human. We find an excuse with living with ourselves when we have made a decision we are not proud of. But, we need to remind ourselves, God will not withhold his love, his mercy, his forgivness for we are each his children and we are forgiven.

Discovery

I've been gone awhile-not from home mind you. Gone from myself. I needed time to be angry. I needed time to process the past two weeks. And here is what I have discovered.
1. When in trouble, ask God and your friends. God is going to pick you up. Your friends cry and pray with you. Thank you each and everyone.
2. We each age. Some faster than others. We want to hold on to our childhood. We want to hold on to our parents. There comes a time to take care of ourselves.
3. We can't make other people happy all the time. We can't change their situation. We can't change the circumstances. They have to make their own decisions about making their life full or take their own life.
4. It is OK to grieve.
5 It is OK to be happy and content with yourself.
6. There are situations in our life we can't take back. From the time that an injustice, pain, words, or an action it becomes a part of our life.
7. Say I love you more often. There will be a time in our life when it will be too late.
I am back now....and will be back with "My Will Be Done " soon.
I've missed you. Happy Weekend.
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Discovery

I've been gone awhile-not from home mind you. Gone from myself. I need time to be angry. I need time to process the past two weeks. And here is what I have discovered.

1. When in trouble, ask God and your friends. God is going to pick you up. Your friends cry and pray with you. Thank you each and everyone.

2. We each age. Some faster than others. We want to hold on to our childhood. We want to hold on to our parents. There comes a time to take care of ourselves.

3. We can't make other people happy all the time. We can't change their situation. We can't change the circumstances. They have to make their own decisions about making their life full or take their own life.

4. It is OK to grieve.

5 It is OK to be happy and content with yourself.

6. There are situations in our life we can't take back. From the time that an injustice, pain, words, or an action it becomes a part of our life.

7. Say I love you more often. There will be a time in our life when it will be too late.

I am back now....and will be back with "My Will Be Done"

I've missed you. Happy Weekend.